I think it's safe to say as humans touch a heck of a lot of stuff. Touch this touch that, but what happens when a touch becomes your worst nightmare! Now I'm not talking about a X-rated touch. No it's much worst,it's the unwanted touch of another person. Example: Your having a friendly conversation with someone you just met, and they reach out there hand to touch your arm...Now I don't know about you but if I don't know you like that I'm going to be putting out those" Don't touch me I don't know where you hands been" vibe. Sometimes the very thought of your hands, my body, you touching me....makes me crawl.But that's mean to think about right? So let's blame it on your mood at the time. Sometimes you are just not feeling the kind touch of a loving person. some times it just out right burns your skin.
At time you may get the toucher who is touching you for the wrong reason. Case in point, they may just want to shock you because they just rubbed there feet repeatedly on the floor. Or they could just be one of those nasty, and wanna get up on you. If that's the case feel free to mace the individual.
So as my rant comes to end I just thought about how sometime when I'm taking a picture you get that one person who is all up one you that you feel the very life in your body is being sucked out. To that i say "Get The Heck Off me!" Keep it like this...if i touch, maybe its ok to touch me. That's a big maybe.
So you got nobody to love. Well the world of music will be happy to take you out on a date. Music says to you, " Come my sexy friend and I will rock your world." Trust me music will rock your world, it want you to use it thur your pain of not having someone to hold or cuddle or hit in the back of the head.( Be nice lol) Music has this knowledge that knows how to express the feeling of how your feeling. That's why a mix CD can be a wonderful healing power. Music will scream for you, bleed for you, make you feel better about letting someone go. Music can make you feel like you don't need a dang person in the world! But when you use it to kill the soul of another person, well as cool as that sounds...that's kinda mean. I mean I'm just saying.(Only cause I have done it before and it felt awesome) So go out and make your mix CD of finding love, lust, hate,a job, having a kid,running over your cheating lovers bike, calling your backstabbing friend out, etc. Music is your key to the world, so Jam it right in. (TeeHee)
So put your so called pimp hat on, grabbed your Nikon and just start snapping away! You so hood you so thug,oh yeah I'm scared. Let's show the world your badly painted bathroom or trashed living space. It's all good! Oh now come we can't forget the face. Give me one of those "I'm not smiling cause I'm just to darn good for that" looks. Yeah that just gives me chills. Now let's move on to your phone, cause I love looking at your played out Razer or your ego boosting Iphone. Your really making my day now. Iphones make me hot. I can only feel that your day is over and you took these picture when the work day was over or school was done and surely not on more important time, cause I know your smart like that. Oh how your Social Network Profile Picture feel me with joy that I can't help be turn it to true Rage. I say this cause I fell prey to the shine of looking fine in that little box to the left. But you must not no bout me....cause I found out it's easy to replace me, with a better picture.
We all wanna stand out, be heard, to have a voice. Sadly this is nothing but a mere dream to some of us. We so quickly find out that when we don't use our god giving voice, well guess what? We are heard. And sometime we come across where we have spoke up,but guess what again? It was not made clear what it was we were trying to get across. Bottom line is: "yeah it sucks." People today so easily get things twisted, meaning They hear what they wanna hear and the heck with the rest. Everybody wants respect when it comes to there feelings, thoughts and overall viewpoint on life. But that seem to be something we just don't get as much today. So what to do, that doesn't involve stabbing someone to an inch of there life just cause they made it seem like you have this major issue that really just only amounts to nothing? Well it very simple. MAKE YOURSELF CLEAR! THE FIRST TIME! Don't leave room for a person to feel in any blanks, especially when there is no room for blanks. You are not a human mad libs. So don't be treated like one. Plain and simple, put a side the fact that they may not like the fact you are about to tell them: "NO , I don't wanna hang out with you!" See how simple that is, and if somehow they find room in that firm, clear statement that you didn't mean that, then maybe you should grab the nearest knife.(lol) Really it's all about you not playing game with serious matters that could come back and bite u in the butt, cause you were too nice or too scared or whatever the reason to set the matter straight from the get go. Trust me I would know. It's been the story of my life a few times. And EVERYTIME I felt so stupid that I didn't make myself clear. Don't leave your book open so someone can just come right in and mess your thinking up, your sleeping pattens, eating habits and etc. The list goes on and on. It's really up to you! ;D So go out there and make yourself clear and forget what all those mellow-dramatic people think. You can do it!!!!!
xoxo
Vikki J
How do you get something right the first time. This can apply to a relationship, choosing a place to eat, etc. etc. Bu my whole thing is when it comes to this why is it that all my personal ave. are like a one way street sometimes...What is that about???? How do one cope with the fact they lead to one common spot. Now I'm not saying failure but just an end that I'm not always happy with. I guess that's all part of that thing called life. It's super simple, you get out what you put in. with in many of our cases is alot or not so much. (lol) Anyways I guess it is all about finding that middle ground and when you do just using it to help you rise above whats keeping you down. Just something I'm trying to do these day. I'll tell you if it works out for me later. :)
My feeling as of now to everything that could be going on in my life right now is pretty much sum up into one word at this time in my life is: REALLY! I don't wanna believe in all the things that are happening to me right now are REALLY going on. They say some people just walk in the light. Well guess what, tons of people view me as that person with the ray of sunshine that beans down on my head. I can blame them, on the account I feel the same way. I carry myself as a strong sweet no non-sense taking female. With a body like "Whoa" and a wit and charm that can break just about any kinda ice, prized myself on being what many call: A DIVA. But see hear even diva get a hit with the REALLY brick sooner or later. I just hope this is my sooner and not my later....
The feeling of I'm REALLY alone completely over shadows the fact that I get I love you everyday of my life from someone. I'm a wanted person, but not wanted in the way I REALLY want or need. I'm not needed (thank god) I just need the space that lay empty to be filled, forever.
Forgive me for making it seen that is sucksville for me. Being that there is waaaay more people out there with deeper issues and far more stronger feelings, but this me so I'm running the importance train here. so spare me the "Suck it the *bleep* up kid" speech and just nod your head to my groove called life and just say "Your gonna make it."
